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Sick of Jones

by Casey Heinzism

I however got sick of Jones around the age of 6.

I yelled at him to go away to leave me alone. To be so darn quiet I did not want to even know he existed as part of me..

As I fought against even my love of trains most of the time between 1st grade and 6th grade.. but in the middle of 6th grade I could not handle it anymore...

I snapped and wanted to die...

Much of this was realizing I was losing self control over the train and railroad thing and Jones seemed to be further invading my world...

It was also at this time people started to harass me calling me schizophrenic because my a biological sister was diagnosed with it...

I would rather die then live in a world full of delusions.

I wanted my death to be slow and painful...

So I did suicide attempts that would do just that.

..But no matter what I did I kept living..

No one even knew of my suicidal attempts most of the time.

I appeared so happy that when they found out I was diagnosed with Severe depression they did not even believe that...

I then was further scared as I was typing up my homework assignments to discover I was typing things I did not write.

I later found out I was doing what is called automatic writing and I was channeling Chaca who was typing messages to me or to my friends reading over my shoulder as he was tipping them off on how to help me, as he was doing his best to get me out of self harming and get me some help.

He even became more persistent and started to whisper and out right talk to my friends.

My real friends listened and understood. Others kept falling back on the schizophrenia thing...

I found I would black out as Jones or Chaca took over my writing and poetry and added things to them...

Then there was that week in School I blacked out while writing poetry and found myself writing about "Casey Jones" ... on his wreck day a parody of Casey At the Bat...

My teachers were all impressed with that and then covered in their lessons the controversy of Cayce verses Casey Kentucky.. and they were curious about what I had to say about that.

I Stated I did not care how the town spelled it's name and thought the argument was quite funny.

I often then thought.. Wow, Jones definitely left a serious impression on people if they fight so bad over how to spell a town in honor of him..

I knew he definitely had some hold of influence since we were discussing these things almost 100 years later.

He sure had a powerful hold of influence in forming my Peace Keeping Rails Group...

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